“Tomorrow.”
Andri clenched his right hand into a tight fist while looking at the street
below, at a long-haired girl who was casually riding her scooter. Andri didn’t
know what her name was, or where she came from. All that he knew about her was
that she was a student of Visual Arts Department; it could be seen from the
jacket she always wore.
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“I’m
sick of your tomorrows. Tomorrow, tomorrow, when is tomorrow, exactly?” Satria,
his roommate had begun to feel annoyed with Andri’s cowardice.
The
girl turned left at the cross road near their lodging house, and then she was
out of sight. But Andri, was still mesmerized by her beauty, especially her
long black wavy hair which flew around as the wind played with it. He stood
still; his eyes were half closed and he took a deep long breath. He tried to
fantasize the girl’s face, though it was nothing, but a blur. Yeah, he hadn’t
seen her face clearly because she always wore a helmet, a girl who cared about
safety in riding, Andri thought. Yet, he couldn’t help but fell in love with
her. Why? He couldn’t find any answer.
That
girl, that mysterious girl, had stolen his heart right from the first time he
laid his eyes on her, around three months earlier. Andri could even distinguish
the sound of her scooter which, according to Satria, wasn’t different from
other scooters.
“Hello?”
Satria waved his hand in front of Andri’s face, “I’m talking to you!”
Andri
was taken aback, but he could manage a little idiotic smile, “Yeah?”
Satria
playfully hit Andri’s head, “When will you talk to her? Aren’t you bored of
just looking at her like a tiger looking at his prey? You need to take an
action!”
“But...
I’m afraid.”
“Of
what?”
“I
don’t know.” But he did know what he was afraid of. He was afraid of rejection.
The
next day, at the same place and the same time, Andri leaned against the
balcony’s fence on the second floor of his lodging house. He looked at the
street below and waited impatiently ‘till he finally spotted her. It seemed
like the girl could sense his presence, she looked up and saw Andri. Their eyes
met for a nano second. A very short period of time, but long enough to make
Andri’s heart jump out from its place.
“Damn!”
he cursed after the girl disappeared at the crossroad, “I have to talk to her!
Tomorrow, yeah tomorrow!”
Andri
walked into his room then he took his laptop. He connected it to the lodging
house’s wifi and accessed Google. He typed some words on the search bar then
pushed the enter button. The next second, the monitor displayed the search
results. He clicked on the first result, read the article, smiled like an
idiot, then continued reading. He did the same to the other few results.
“Yeah,”
Andri looked satisfied, “I have read some tips on how to talk to a girl for the
first time. Tomorrow, I’ll know her name!” He smiled confidently.
Alas,
not long after that his confidence vanished into thin air, nothing was left
except some questions which had actually been answered by the articles he had
just read: “how should I start the conversation? Should I stop her in front of the lodging house? Andri shook his
head, he didn’t want to be mistaken as a criminal. Should I follow her to her lodging house? He shook his head again,
he didn’t want her to think that he was a stalker. And, what if she doesn’t like me? She had seen me yesterday, what if
she thinks I am a bad person? What if
it I try to approach her, she will be afraid of me? Then she thinks of moving from
this area?
There
was a knock at the door. Half-heartedly, Andri walked toward the door and
opened it, “Sup?”
Satria
gave one of his mysterious smiles.
“What?”
Without
answering, he entered Andri’s room, sat on his bed and drank up his Pocari
Sweat, “Good news.”
“What
good news?” Andri sat next to Satria.
“I
know her name.”
“What?”
Andi’s voice was louder than he intended.
Satria
smiled a smile which looked more like a grin, “You wanna know?” teased him.
“Ya.”
Satria
moved his face closer to Andri’s, looked like he was going to kiss him,
“SECRET” he laughed out loud, then ran out to the balcony. Andri ran after him.
“You
have to talk to her today, no more tomorrows.” Satria said while looking at the
street.
“What’s
her name?”
Satria
turned his face to Andri, “Come on dude, you are guy! You should have guts to
make the first move!”
“How?”
“That,
my friend,” Satria patted Andri’s back, “You have to find out yourself. Haha.”
Andri
couldn’t sleep that night. He tossed and turned on his bed, unable to find to
comfortable position to rest. He felt so disturbed, so helpless. The girl’s
blurry face kept on taunting him. Satria’s
right, he talked to himself, I have
to make the first move.
“She’s
still single.” Satria said earlier that day, when the two of them were standing
on the balcony, facing the empty street below them.
“How
do you know?”
“She
was Mira’s high school friend.”
“Really?”
Satria
nodded his head, “I couldn’t see you like this, so I made an investigation
about her. I asked some friends about a girl studying Visual Arts with her
characteristics. Mira recognized her at once. Her name is ... ooopss..” Satria
covered his mouth.
“Tell
me.”
“You
have to find it out yourself. But trust me, she is still single. The last time
she was in a relationship was in 11th grade. She is so kind, sweet,
humble, smart, diligent; in short, a wife material.”
Andri
kicked away the idea of sleeping. He got up and opened the only window in his
small room, letting in the cold November air. He had decided that he would talk
to that girl the following day, no more delaying, no more tomorrows. In fact,
he had practiced his pick up line in front of the mirror. A smile found his way
to his face, just a few more hours, then
I’ll know her name.
Unlike
the previous days in the previous months, that day Andri stood near the gates
of his lodging house. He didn’t care if he looked weird or anything, he had
made up his mind that he would talk to that girl.
The
wind blew slowly and his ears caught the familiar sound of her scooter. He
looked at the street and there she was, riding her scooter at a quite high
speed. Andri’s heart began to pound in his chest. Several beads of cold sweat
wetted his temples and forehead.
Time
slowed down, everything happened in a slow motion. The girl was just a few
meters from where Andri stood. And as expected, he lost his confidence. He
stood still, like a statue. He let her pass by him, just like that. He didn’t
even smile, or wave at her. He missed his chance, again.
Fine, Andri looked down and clenched both of his hands into
fists, I’ll do it tomo... Andri
couldn’t finish the sentence in his head as he heard a crash sound. It was so
loud, and the same time he felt the earth trembled beneath him. Quickly, he
turned his head to where the sound came from and he almost couldn’t believe his
eyes. There, lied on the ground, covered with blood, was his dream girl. Andri
ran to her at his highest speed, making his way through the crowd that had fast
gathered around her. He kneeled near her body and ordered someone to call an
ambulance. Everyone looked at one another, too panic to react, making dizzying
noise instead of doing what they had to do, “Damn!” Andri screamed in
frustration. He took his phone and dialed 118.
“Please
hang on.” Andri held the girl’s hand. She looked so weak and she could hardly
breathe, “Don’t die.” He whispered. Andri had never been a religious person.
The truth was, he wasn’t even a believer. But that time, he muttered a prayer
under his breath. He prayed to the God he had never believed in. Please, please, don’t take her.
The
girl tried to say something, but was unable to do so. Andri felt so hopeless,
the girl he loved was dying in front of him but he couldn’t do anything about
it. He could just wait, for a miracle. But the miracle he needed so bad didn’t
come. The girl closed her eyes, and never opened them again.
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